Pointer # 1: if you want to take those stunning shots of the snow covered graveyard, I'd suggest first going home and getting proper gear on, instead of just pulling over and jumping into knee-deep snow with your camera on hand.
(and the whole time I was thinking- How morbidly ironic would it be, if I died of hypothermia, in a graveyard? :-p )
It was good though. I felt rather independent after coming back from finally getting my license replaced and then pulling over to take some pictures. It was cold. And Beautiful.

Pointer # 2: Even if you liked getting called out of work on Monday and being able to sleep in instead of going in for the early shift, stop first and think about the money you need and then don't sound too happy on the phone. Because the end result might end up being them calling you out for the whole week because you were so willing to do it earlier!

News though: I will be moved to Meat dept. now, according to the Manager. (Nice, I now get that awesome Market Basket cap and the ridiculously huge white smock!)

So, a New Years started...
 I could write about how the last year was a learning process, where I learned so much more about myself and those around me, both good and ugly. And how visiting Oregon and strengthening friendships and weakening others were the highlight of my year....and I could tell you how this upcoming year brings some sense of Hope to me. And how I'm 18 now, and will be learning more about true independence and what true Love really takes. And how I'm anxious and excited about it all....but that would take too much time, and would just become clique-ish, so I won't :-p

(I gots a new dress, and am ridiculously happy with it like no other type of materialistic outfit before. Okay? Thank, bye.)

(name that quote if you can...)

Bullet points for you:

• The trailer for the Chronicles of Narnia: Prince Caspian is reportedly coming out Dec. 5th. () Watch Narniaweb.com for it. Seemingly, it might be on the Golden Compass movie, which comes out Dec. 7th. I find that in some way ironically funny.
• Jen comes home Saturday. Jen comes home Saturday...Jen is visiting Saturday. But she'll be here nonetheless. And our Christmas this year is about 2 weeks early. Dec. 12th to be exact. This year, I'm born AFTER Christmas.
• Snow is coming. Snow is coming!
• I still love Theatre...really, I do. I saw the Christmas Carol performed from a traveling theatre troupe. I'd like to do that someday...
• God keeps showing up at my workplace randomly. I'll turn around and poof! there He is suddenly, in the most RANDOM spots. I had no idea that the Supervisior whom I've had disagreements with is in fact a Jew...and somehow we end up in doctrine debates. And a conversation with a customer (phone-man, actually) randomly ends up in "God in Science" within maybe not even 5 minutes....
• I need a victorian outfit for me and three other females tomorrow...maybe I should panic soon.

Okay. I blogged! It felt good.
God bless

-me.
P.S. Anyone here Rhett and Link fans?

November was always that mysterious thing that floated swiftly by on a winters eve....or breathed slowly by, minute by minute, and then left, swiftly.
Either way, its hardly ever been a memorable month for me. It seems to lag on and on, keeps me cooped up until I can't wait to rush outside into a mountain of White.
Its late, and I should be reading Latin. But my thoughts are tired from forms and essays and fears and doubts of tomorrow. I really want to just dream.
I miss reading my Bible. I do. By the time I pick it up though I fall asleep from exhaustion or pains.
When I enter my room its full of half done paintings, or paint ideas, or homemade gift ideas. Papers with a hundred ideas are scattered on my desk. I was going to do the artwork of someone's book. And the manuscript is still buried under COLLEGE forms and MATH. Its being stifled, I'm sure.

I love my friends. I miss some too, yes.
Another thought thats been floating around my brain is Honesty. True, deep, pure Honesty.
Its something I noticed my sister and her friends had in Oregon. Honesty with each other. Whether they were male or female. They were blunt and truthful and deeply honest with each other. And it worked, beautifully.
I want that. I want to be honest.

A side note to those who are still wondering about the blood tests- they came back, "perfect" they said. Which is good, ...and bad. It still means we have more searching to do. I am scheduled for a Brain Scan (isn't there a more technical term for that?) sometime next month. And a Lyme disease test sooner then that...

All of you are working too hard, I can see. We all need a break. Or you do. Lets all eat some imaginary pizza and just hang out together sometime soon, k?

My mind is wandering. Or my heart. Again.
Good night.
-me.
P.S. I am done with Frankenstein, for the second time. And I like it moreso each time.

In the Cosby show, Theo Huxtable has an ongoing problem with his schoolwork throughout the seasons. He  is always trying really hard, but it still is never good enough. This goes on for years on end with his parents constantly on his case about it.
Until finally, years later, he goes to the doctor and they find out he has something called Dyslexia.
Once they arrive home, both Father and Son are ecstatic, shouting and yelling "You have dyslexia!" " I have dyslexia!" in a comical way. The sister Vanessa steps in and asks whats going on. When she heres the news, she acts horrified. Why would he want dyslexia? S
till ecstatic, Dr. Huxtable and Theo reply with because now he knows. And its treatable.

For years now, I've had a mysterious... thing going on with me that we can't seem to fix. I've gone to doctors about it, and they've given me the same "yeah sure your not on drugs" look and tested me for diabetes, etc. But still haven't gotten anywhere. Today though, was different.
Once the doctor came in, I recognized her as a mother a former Agape student and fellow classmate of my brothers. I was shocked, and felt so much better. I knew her, and I knew she was a Christian. (Ironically, she didn't seem to remember me too well, but she seemed to remember me from the play Pygmalion.)
But the thing is, that she really listened to everything my mother and I had to say, and that put me at ease. We even had some funny little conversations.
So yeah. No news yet. Shes referring me to a Neurologist, and I'm getting some more lab tests done. We'll see. Thanks to people to knew about this a prayed.
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In other news.
Actually, there isn't much other news. Mostly news is whats been going on in here *points to head*
Learning about Guilt. If there really is such a thing as Regret in a Christian's life. Friendship, true friendship. True Love. Selfishness...etc.

Life is one long journey, isn't it.

God bless

Today I had a deaf/mute customer. It was very interesting.
At first, I thought she was ignoring me when I kept saying "Hi ma'am, how are you?" and she never looked at me.
Then when I asked her certain things about her items, she would gesture with her hands and move her mouth...but wouldn't ever say anything. ..I hate to say it, but I thought that maybe she was just sick and had lost her voice.
But when a price came up wrong and she really started to try telling me that, I realized that she actually couldn't talk, and I felt horrible because I could NOT understand her. Finally, I was able to understand that she wanted a piece of paper and pen. She then wrote what the correct price was, and the assistant came over and helped change it.
I don't know how she understood me though, because she did nod every now and then. I'm guessing she could read lips.
The man bagging for me told me that shes a deaf/mute and comes in regularly. I had never seen her before.

There is no movie night tonight, I guess thats good...because I have a lot to do.
I'm tired, and in pain.

Tomorrow is a long, big day. Work and then later, Kiaya's par-tay.

I want to paint and draw again, please...its been a long time.

Aaaand I've lost my sweatshirt (my stand-true one, again.), and my wallet. Both at different times.
Bye ya'll....